Wednesday, October 8, 2014

The Story of Shahmeer

I was nearing two days due when I woke up finding a spot of blood on my underwear. That very morning, I asked my mom to come with me for a a checkup, hoping the doctor would finally find a softened cervix and some dilatation. It turned out to be a false alarm. Nothing happened down there heheh. My baby was where he wanted to be. My family and I discussed and agreed that regardless the result, we should just stay overnight in the hospital in case something happens. Hospital check-in: January 15th, 2014.

During my first night in the hospital, things progressed slowly. I remember that on that night, I was still only dilated to 1 centimeter. Just some mild contractions every 2 hours. By the way, the nursing staffs in RS. Premier Jatinegara were very friendly and attentive. They would check on me every hour and ask me how I feel. I think that was very nice.

The next morning, January 16th, the contractions were still mild. I was still okay although there were times I would be a wee bit crying holding the pain. But I made it through the half day just fine. I made a request to my family that I just wanted to be with S and nobody else. I also asked S to not turn on the TV. I just wanted the room to be quiet and peaceful.

The real, intense contractions started to happen after Isya prayers, I think. It started to happen every 30 minutes, and I would scream and cry and squeeze S’s hands. It was very, very, very painful. I honestly felt like I was going to die. I started to hold my breath a little bit throughout the contractions and read some Quran verses just to distract and calm myself at the same time. However, the nurses checked and I was still dilated to 2 centimeters only. That was like, at around 8:30 p.m. They predicted that I might be giving birth in the next 12 hours, or around 8:30 in the morning.

Needless to say, I wasn't smiling 10 minutes later. I started having harder contractions. I was so so so much in pain. I even went outside the room crawling and begged on my knees to the nurses to just do something. Anything. I remember begging them for any drug that could reduce the pain. I even begged for a C-Section but no one fulfilled my request. I was crying and screaming in the hallway. I couldn’t take it.

S could no longer ease me that he called my parents at 2 a.m to come and do something. My parents arrived at around 2:30 a.m. My mom kept holding my hands and I kept looking back at her crying. Then I apologized to her as if it was my last day on earth. There were no other words in my brain. Just pain. Then I told my mom, I don’t want the nurses to check me. I wanted the doctor to come. I just wanted to see my doctor, Dr. Julianto Witjaksono.

By 4:40 a.m, the doctor finally arrived. The moment I saw his face, I immediately screamed, “where have you beeeeeeeeen?”. OMG. It was the longest, longest 1,5 hours in my life waiting for the doctor to come.

When my doctor checked, turned out my baby’s head was already crowning. Crowning means, the baby’s head was already slightly out. Say whaaaaat???? THAT’S WHY IT WAS SO PAINFUL, yes?

The delivery process started immediately. When this began, my mood toooooootally changed. This was it. The moment I was waiting for. That “push push push” and "hush hush" rush I used to only watch in movies and would impersonate and make fun of with my friends sometimes. I was extremely excited and happy. It’s so weird. Just a few minutes ago I was crying like dying, and when the doctor officially said, “let’s begin”, I was smiling and laughing and even had the chance to crack a joke making everyone in the room laugh.

It took us only 10 minutes. Within 3 pushes, out he came. My little angel, at 4:50 a.m, January 17th, 2014.

My Shahmeer, very little and fragile.

I was so overwhelmed that I just kept looking at S and said, "so this is how it feels".

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Alhamdulillah ya Allah. Alhamdulillah.

18 comments:

jendelaopini said...

Sweety baby...!

siti masyitah said...

wow.. mengingatkan agar kita selalu berbakti pada orang tua especially ibu.. trims ka diana :)

Anonymous said...

your baby is so cute..i love him...

Lisa Maharaja said...

Painfull & sweet as the same time

Lisa Maharaja said...

Painfull & sweet at the same time

Nunu said...

Semoga perjuangan ibu bisa menjadikan shamer jalan menuju SurgaNya nanti

Anonymous said...

oh i feel something inside my heart...im not yet pregnant after 1 year married. hopefully my turn will be coming soon. may Allah bless you and family. send my hug to the lovely Shahmeer. <3

studio musik said...

all the pain, screams, and energy paid off after the baby tucked in in our arms right? amazing journey...

Cindy Khor said...

I haven't congrats you yet. Congratulation and your baby is absolutely adorable.

Thanks for sharing with us your labour process. Was kinda worried that when I give birth in the future such immense pain would have tortured me to death. I think I'm going to require heavy doses of epidural before the labour. Or I'll have to bite somebody's arm off **jk**

ranindra said...

i'm 34 weeks now. And i did cry reading this. Mixed feelings. You describe it (maybe) very correct.

:) praying for my self for an easier labor pain.

TheUrbanWife said...

aahhh di lucky u..
aku pun mau banget ngerasain hamil, melahirkan dan punya anak..

semoga allah mengabulkanya..aaminn :)

ririst chan said...

ah kak Di, ini bikin terharu sekali. Thank you for sharing us the story of S.

novi said...

Kak, makasih udah share ceritanya. Jadi bisa ngebayangin perjuangan seorang ibu pas ngelahirin :') Semoga kakak dan keluarga sehat terus, ya :)

Dyah Wulandari said...

Duh Mbak, pengen nangis aku bacanya.
Jadi inget waktu dulu ketuban pecah padahal baru pembukaan 1. Dari pembukaan 1 ke pembukaan 2 rasanya udah minta ampun, sampai akhirnya harus caesar karena ketuban makin kering dan perjalanan menuju acara push and hush masih lama.

Dulu suka sedih kalau ada yang bilang belum sempurna rasanya jadi ibu kalau belum ngerasain rasanya melahirkan normal. Tapi balik lagi, setiap ibu punya cara masing-masing untuk berjuang. Normal atau caesar, yang penting si Kecil sehat.

Semoga kita dan ibu-ibu yang lain selalu diberi kekuatan untuk membesarkan dan menjaga titipanNya.

Ahdini said...

wow what a beautiful post. you open my eyes as a daughter and mom wanna be :D :P glad that he has turned into a healthy good looking boy! :)

Jeannee Waseck said...

Thank you for sharing your intense, it has a happy ending, birthing story w/ us - and - congratulations!!!

Jeannee Waseck said...

Even tho I was on another site, I kept thinking about your story ... becoming a mother is so awesome - again, congratulations!!!

Asri Sudarmiyanti said...

Subhanallah kak, you're a great mother, just like all mothers in the world

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