Girl Boss

It's always a good day when I get to take a colorful selfie heheheheh..

Shoe Hunt & TFW

Spent the day looking for shoes for my upcoming Schmiley Mo fashion show at Torino Fashion Week omggggggggg. Sending 18 pairs of my own Up shoes here to Switzerland would be quite costly so I decided to just buy some shoes here. Things are never cheap in Switzerland but luckily I found some pretty cute ones that were quite affordable yayyyyyyy. Bismillah! :)

Schmiley Mo top, H&M skirt, Furla bag, Dolce & Gabbana sunglasses, Up sandals

Friday Moon Girl

Daisy Street sheer top, No Basic Bombshell earrings, Lorelai necklace, Moschino bag, ASOS boots

Delivery Baby Girl

Hubby bought me this red J.W. Anderson pierce bag as my Eid gift awwwwwww...he knows how truly sad I am to be celebrating the day away from my family, so a bag to cure my sad heart it is! :D

Current Mood jacket, Zara pants, Gucci sunglasses, J.W. Anderson pierce bag, Fila sneakers

Round And Round

When your Sunday is so simple - you simply take the bus and go around the city because it makes your son very happy. ❤️

Forever 21 shirt, Bershka jeans, Mama Tierra wayuu bag, Sun Jellies sandals

Burger Hunting

Thrasher t-shirt, Zara skirt, Moschino bag, Converse sneakers

Eid Mubarak!!!!

Eid Mubarak from the four of us yayyyyyy! Feeling so blessed to celebrate Eid this year with my little baby girl here..it's her first Eid ever! :)

Anyway, this is my 2nd year celebrating Eid away from our family back home and although I am sad, I am grateful to also have such loving friends here whom I consider family too. But still, I really really really miss my mom and dad. See you soon, inshaaAllah! :)

Color Me Face

When I saw that Crayola is doing makeup, my brain just froze out of extreme excitement that my fingers were like auto-piloting doing click - add to cart - make payment LOL. Aaaaaaand after one week waiting, my Crayola Beauty items have arrived! I was so happy I couldn't wait to immediate play with it hahaha!

My review? Honestly, not that good. To me the texture and the way it glides on your face felt more like a face paint rather than "makeup". Colors are not as pigmented as I thought too. But still, a fun collection to have plus the packaging is uber cute! :)

Morning Laughters

I had such a good laugh with S this morning, which reminded me once again of why we fell in love with each other; our sense of humor. I love it when we laugh together. The world immediately feels better, life feels so much lighter.

Alhamdulillah..:’)

About Depression & Anxiety

The topic of depression and anxiety have been gaining more awareness lately, and since mental illness used to be something people would rather hide or suppress, this is definitely a good change. Although I have fortunately never been overly depressed and have never really experienced anxiety to an extreme point, I do have a few people within my own circle of family and friends who have struggled and are still struggling through depression; some who thought of suicide, and one who actually did. I have been in a room with my own good friend who was already holding a knife trying to end her life at that time. I have found someone trying to suicide in her dorm room that I had to call security guards and we broke her door and I had to drove her to the hospital in my pajamas and with my hands fully shaking. I have witnessed how really serious it can get.

Depression is a really serious matter that is often shattered by society - usually labeling the person going through it as being "a drama queen" or "too sensitive". I used to think this way too (and I am deeply sorry), but over time, I have learned and understood better that the emotions a depressed person deals with can be extremely overwhelming that it takes over one's sanity, making a person unable to think or feel clearly. So when they say, "I am nothing, I am worthless, I wanna die", it's not a metaphor, it's an actual feeling and intention caused by the imbalance of chemicals and hormones affecting how their brain works. It's confusing, it's real, it's serious.

We need to help them.

I am no expert in this matter, but from my personal experience, this is how we can at least help.

• Listen, listen, listen. Listen to what they are telling you. And when they are telling you, don't try to end it with simple (stupid) responses like, "naaahh, you're okay, you're just not thinking straight right now", or "are you crazy? shut up!", or "I think you're being too sensitive.. lighten up, tomorrow you'll be fine". Do not just simply end the conversation. A long, in-depth, open communication is what helps them heal.
• Instead, ask them, "why are you feeling that way?". Let them share with you more, let them cry, let them scream, let them pour out everything that is bothering them even when it sounds so confusing to you. No judgments, just be a kind ear. 
• Be there for them. Don't let them be alone. Accompany them as much as possible. Sit with them. Eat with them. Watch TV with them. Go jogging with them. You don't need to always talk. Just be present and be there. 
• If you feel that they are not feeling any better, help them meet a psychiatrist who can help them further professionally.

If you yourself are the one going through depression or anxiety, I am truly sorry for your extremely difficult battle. Please please share your feelings with someone you can trust or feel comfortable with. Try to recognize the symptoms when you are not feeling yourself or when you are finding it very hard to simply feel happy about anything. Understand that this is not coming from you, but your mind being taken over - therefore try your very best to fight it. Be honest about your feelings and seek help.

May God always protect us all.