A Daughter's Pain

You watched me struggle

You heard all my cries

And my screams

I was drowned in pain

Fell into a well so deep and dark

and did not know how to get out

I called you

I called for you

I did not ask for help

I begged

I reached a point when I told you

"I give up"

and dying felt like an option

And you said to me,

"Don't forget to pray"

Because you think

only God can save me

when all I wanted

was for you to save me

I tell you everything

every time

I was always reaching out for you

thinking you were my guiding light

But now I realize

You were never a lamp

I was my own lamp

Shining my own empty rooms

Guiding my own ways

"She's so bright",

you talk about others

I am here, shining too

but invisible to you

I begged

I cried

I screamed

And you just looked at me

"I don't know what to say"

but I do

I just wanted you to say

"I love you. I am proud of you. I am here"