My Little S

2024 means, it's been 10 years of having the honor to be Shahmeer's mother. Shahmeer, a capricorn just like me. Very sweet, very kind, smiles a lot, loves hugs, loves kisses, loves anything bread, loves gummy bears, loves fried chicken, loves onions, loves noodles and spaghetti. Hates crowds, hates loud noises, hates theme parks and fun rides, hates hand dryers in public toilets. Shahmeer is autistic, and non-verbal. What does that mean? It means, he does not have the ability to speak verbally. In the simplest words, he cannot talk. He also cannot comprehend sign language. Therefore, he communicates through pictures. He tells us what he wants by showing us a picture on his device. If he wants to eat fried chicken, he'll point at a picture of a fried chicken. He cannot read. He cannot write. He cannot express his emotions well, because he does not know what exactly is 'sad' or 'angry' or 'confused'. But I understand his feelings, most of the times. I can feel it. Sometimes I am completely just clueless. Having a child with autism has allowed me to see life from the most profound perspective. It has taught me strength, patience, empathy, compassion, and unconditional love. I am a person of zen, unbothered by daily life drama and non-sense chatters. I nurture good thoughts in my mind. Perhaps, because what I go through in a day is already extremely tough. Other problems in life feels like dust because at home, I am constantly lifting big rocks. I cannot see a life where Shahmeer lives his day without me, and therefore, we are tied together forever. We are a set, I come in a set. I will always be his protector for as long as I live, and I truly hope it will be for very long. Life is a mystery, life is a gift. Whatever life throws at you, it is what it is. Live with joy, and don't let problems or challenges stop you from living. To live is to live with a big heart and an open mind. Always be kind. 💖