Friday, October 14, 2011

Opening Up

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Red Herring sweater, Topshop tights, D-I-Y leg accessories, Sox Gallery socks, unbranded hat, Fossil bag, Up wedges

I think I'm scared. Of getting married. My wedding is only a few weeks away, and I'm getting closer to being somebody else's. I will no longer be just me. I fear not of making a commitment, but of losing my personal freedom. I've always been an independent girl, and I somehow very much enjoy it. My ego would say, I have my own things, my own ways, my own dreams, and I don't know how this all would be once I'm tied to a man. Simplest thoughts: do I always have to wake up earlier than him? Can I sleep whenever I feel like sleeping and not have to sleep according to his timing? Do I always have to wear nice clothes in front of him? No more pinky stuff in my bedroom? No more My Little Pony dolls? No more floral wall stickers? Do I have to always be awake when he comes back from office? Can I still have a Glee marathon every night before I go to bed? Can I still become a successful entrepreneur and not end up giving it up because I have no more time?

I might sound very childish, I know. But at least I'm honest. I do believe that this all will work out just fine. It's all a natural process everyone goes through. Love's crazy, right? I love you, S.

S: "Babe.."
Me: "Yes?"
S: "We're the best couple in the world, right?"
Me: "Yup!"

:)

50 comments:

si kecil merica said...

santai Di,nikmati melepas masa lajang mu, btw Congratz ya :) salam buat S

Joana said...

I'm sorry you'll both adapt to living with each other. Because you're so independent and know what you want, you'll find a way to compromise both your lives. I wish you the best of luck dear!

iko said...

I dont visit ur blog regularly Die, but I think it'd be nice to give some comments while I'm here, and since I'm not a fashion aficionado, I guess this is the right post for me to give some comments.

well, marriage is scary, yes, I felt the same way that time. one example, I worried so much about how the marriage would impact my career, but now, I have achieved a position that is far better than I've ever thought.

Losing our personal freedom is one of the consequences of marriage, but after I've got married, I realize that there are things that are equally as valuable and wonderful as freedom... they're called commitment, the joy of sharing,.. and ultimately 'ikhlas'.

Marriage is not an easy thing, it's one complex equation with constantly changing variables and never ending iterations.

But I'm sure you'll love the challenge.

Fetty Asihta Kencana Putri said...

Hmm.. When I'm getting married someday, maybe I will have same thought like you. :p
but anyway, I so happy for you both kak! Always pray the best for you and your life! :)
Keep inspiring kak Di! :*
xoxo

kelimutu said...

Oh,, congrats kak di!! udah mau married yya??
that just usual though that every women will also feel it too kok kak..
yyah walaupun aku juga belum tau rasanya,, but I sure you'll be better after marriage.
congrats yya kak!! \(^o^)/

Karin Zhou said...

Hey, don't be afraid! Just go with the flow. I'm sure you're gonna love it! :)

www.karinzhou.com

MbakEskrim said...

Same feelings here, Diana. Even though I still have several months ahead. But I believe that we can handle it, you can handle it. It's a phase, and you'll through it.

hugs & kisses,
Vinka Maharani.

http://vinkamaharani.blogspot.com

Jess said...

Oh I'm so happy for you, Di!
Being together with the one whom you love is so wonderful.
Don't really worried about that thing, I think S always loves you just the way you are. That is also the reason why he chose you as a person whom he will spend his whole life with...
Since I'm still far away from marriage,I can't feel the same way about loosing your own freedom.. But I do agree with Iko's thoughts.
Once again, congratulations. Wish you all the best. :D

titaz said...

semangaat ya, Diana :)

Erlinda "Miss Little Town" said...

u'r getting married that soon? gosh, i'm so EXCITED! of course there will be changes once u get married, but i'm sure both of r u gonna b very happy. congrats!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi Diana! First of all, congrats! Though I frequent ur site, this is my first to post a comment. U guys will b fine, insyaAllah. Nothing will change, only ur priorities. Depends on how u and S work things out,u will stil have ur freedom and 'me time'. I know cos I'm married for abt 2yrs now. Best of luck :)

Adeline Yang said...

congratulations on the news! i know it ain't gonna be easy, but i guess you'll still do whatever you like, even with more supports!
and hearing from the stories you've posted before, it looks and feels like you guys belongs together :3
i'm happy for you even though we've never met or anything like that, not even close hehehe :P

WendyB said...

My husband lets me be myself!

Olivia said...

Congratulations for the upcoming weeding :)
I think you'll be fine, I can see from your old posts that your man support you 100% you don't need to worry about it. When you passed it you will feel greatfull to have him as your side :)
*I think what you feel right now just a before marriage syndrome xP

Mustika Hayati said...

wah, kak di. selamat yaa..
mungkin disatu sisi ada hal menyenangkan yg ga bisa kita lakuin sebebas dulu ketika msh sendiri, tapi ada kehidupan baru yang lebih baik menanti kita.

-wish you all the best :)

Silvana Prasetya said...

Don't worry be happy, Di...there's always a first time for everything...once u get used of your new role, you will enjoy it...congratss to you and S...just enjoy the ride!:)

Silvana Prasetya said...

Don't worry be happy, Di...there's always a first time for everything...once u get used of your new role, you will enjoy it...congratss to you and S...just enjoy the ride!:)

dunia kecil indi said...

i'm engaged girl, hal yg aku 'takutkan' sama dengan kamu: apa aku bisa atur kamar semauku lagi, apa akubisa nonton DVD sampai larut dan suamiku tetap di tempat tidur?
tapi, D, aku bisa lebih tenang setelah bertanya sama my fiance, aku bilang "apa kita bisa punya kamar yg banyak boneka dan cat'nya pink?", dia bilang boleh. well, apapun, tentu kita tetap harus beradaptasi dan sedikit berubah kan? :) so, good luck, D, kamu memang akan berubah tapi berubah untuk lebih bahagia dan blessed. selamat ya untuk penikahannya segera :)

Melai said...

It's a new chapter in your life! Yes it's scary but I wish you all the best. :)


hearts,
Melai of Style and Soul

Outing said...

Nice article :-)

Anonymous said...

Waktu merid bulan lalu gue jg sempet nakutin hal yg sama. Tapi ternyata ga kejadian tuh, suami gue tetep ngasih gue 'me' time. Gue bisa nongkrongin laptop maraton tv series favorit sementara suami udh tidur di sebelah. Gue bisa jalan2 sendiri karena suami ga enak badan ga bisa nemenin.. oke2 aja tuh selama kompak. Congratss Di, have a happy marriage life!

JengRic said...

Totally agree with Iko's words! I wish you the best of luck Diana.

JengRic said...

Totally agree with Iko's words! I wish you the best of luck Diana!

Fransiska♥Dewi said...

first, i need to tell you that all those things you feared of are normal. In every relationship (including marriage), there will be pebbles and gravels, but if its true love you and S are having, then you don't need to be afraid. In the end, true love will conquer everything :) best of luck! xx

misstyzha said...

Ah I feel the same with you, kak! I'll be getting married next year! But after all, all those fears won't let us doing something stupid like delay our marriage right? Hehehe.. Everything can be compromised since we talk about love! Congrats kak! I'm sure everything will goes well :)

neeruza salman said...

nice blog :)

Laman Baca said...

Blog yang simpel tapi cantik dan menarik, artikelnya pun cukup informatif dan imajinatif...saling berkunjung dan berkomentar ya :D

AuL Howler said...

Ooouuu...

Keep spirit kak!
I'm sure you'll always be YOU, even you're a man's.

Nanti kalo udah selesai,
Bagi2 cerita weedingnya party nya ya ka!
hoho

:))

Clarissa Pamudji said...

Congratulations, kak! :D
Happy for both of you!

Vani Sagita said...

Love the sweater!
So cute..
:)




vanisagita.blogspot.com

gabbie said...

sooo happy you are getting married! :) you know, I always love the post when there is S since I love the quirky funny comfortable relationship you two have. Fights and problems will always come but what important is how both of you will stick together no matter what. All the best for the wedding and ur marriage life :)

Mitha Komala said...

i love your cupcake sweater! and aww, congrats for your upcoming marriage, wish you all the best kak <3

http://mithakomala.blogspot.com/

diana said...

blognya baguz,,
visit back all!!

thanks you,,by diana

mutiara said...

kak diana selamat yah! i wish you all the sukses and the best for both of you. insyaallah everything will work out great :) i dont really do comments tp i love ur blog kak :)

mutianugrabita said...

I know nothing about marriage, but, don't be scared ajaa :D

Dana Paramita said...

just let it flow kak D. you can do, insya allah everything goes well. congrats.

Ida Ayu Melati said...

Selamat ya nooon Diana :D
Bulan madunya di Jogjaaa aja. hehehe...
God Bless You!!!

PS: mbak, aku numpang promosi yaaa.

www.venusisinmars.blogspot.com
(blog kecil dengan hal-hal kecil yang indah.)

Anya Sinta said...

congrats kak! :)
all the best for both of u :)
http://itsatotalmessedup.blogspot.com/

enny luthfiani said...

aku pengikut setia blog ini meskipun jarang komen sih hehe. waw, selamat kak diana. semoga nanti semuanya berjalan lancar dan menyenangkan. wish u always happy :D

Ayu Damayanthi said...

Selamat menikah kak Diana, I know you can do it :D
me love you! <3

Novanda Yasin said...

I feel the same way too. Can I reblog this one. And what I feel now, I can breath easily because someone out there feel the way I feel and Im not alone. Thanks :)

Novanda Yasin said...

I feel the same way too. And now I feel free, because its happen to everyone for being scared of married and Im not alone. Can I reblog this one? Thanks for sharing.

mahidachapie said...

hey di . im happy to hear that :) congratz .. and dont forget to upload your wedding dress :))

mahidachapie said...

hey di . im happy to hear that :) congratz .. and dont forget to upload your wedding dress :))

tv online said...

nice post.

Sarah Rizqi said...

Hi kak!
I'm si glad to hear that. Don't be afraid cause i believe you can handle it and everythings gonna be okay.
Congratulations both of you :D

alat kesehatan said...

wow, fotomu bagus bagus ya... keren2 fotonya. Ya nikmati masa lajang deh sebelum maried dan punya anak.... masa muda masa yang indah.

obat penyakit jantung koroner said...

lam kenal

gie said...

pertama, selamat ya Di! kedua, baca postingan Iko sampe merinding, hehehe... setuju dengannya. mudah2an Di juga merasa sama. I actually told all my friends at the office about this posting and Iko's comment and we discussed it. And we all agree that you are so lucky and we're sure that you'll get through this smoothly and happily, hehehe. may Allah bless you, S, and your wonderful life ahead...Barakallah!

Karina Dinda R. said...

Cupcake ya lucuuuu ^^

Cheers,
Karina Dinda R. ♥
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