Tuesday, April 19, 2011

That's It.

It was my few days of depression. I wasn't stressed, I was in fact depressed. It's very hard to explain how I really felt and the reason behind..I guess it's all an accumulation of things that have been going on in my life. I've been trying to think about it, and I guess I came up with a conclusion: it's a mean world out there. There will always be people who lie to you, who loves bringing you down, who hates you for whatever reason.

S and I spent the night today just sitting in silence. He was very kind to let me just sit and not talk, cuz he knew I wasn't in the mood to talk about anything. I looked at him, and cried. He drove me home.

On our way, we saw a truck got into an accident, and from what we saw, it was pretty bad. I felt...awakened.

I might not be strong, but I am one happy girl. I will never let anything nor anyone take away that spirit. For whatever mistakes I have done, I have apologized. If I am not forgiven, then that's it. For whatever mess I made, I'm always trying my best to fix it. If my effort is not appreciated, then that's it.

We humans are humans. And we should appreciate and give credits to ourselves. If we spend our lives just to please everyone, when will it ever end?

Thank you, Allah. For every blessing. For keeping me safe and sound throughout my days.

I love You...:)

32 comments:

Sweetheart-Bitch said...

I always adore you Diana.Please be strong! :)

Michelle said...

Hope it only gets better for you sweetie!

Holly Psycho Bibble said...

please do not let any one or any thing makes you down, Diana. Because, we love you here and you deserve that. isn't that amazing ? :') not every one can feel the love that we all give you like in time. rise Diana and we'll be prepared to catch you when you fall. like in a Batman movies "why do we fall?" - "to learn how to rise again"

niQue said...

forgiven or not is not a problem anymore, the most important is you already asked for the apologize sincerely.

keep moving on!

Anonymous said...

I think it's not the usual you.. Where's the cheer you always bring?

hanny arianty gultom said...

hallo Die.. take your time... i know it's hard since you said it was depressed.. I know you're not an easy depressed person, rite? :)

I love your blog for being so original and so human.. didn't mean I'm happy to see you sad, but it's just like we need to know that 'life balance that way' quoted from you..:)

semangat terus yah Die..
'If you think right, everything gonna be alright' -ms.hunz-

xoxo

Anonymous said...

Setuju die...ur a happy, funny, creative girl..keep the spirit. *hug and kisses

New Story of PrincessOon said...

be strong,everything will be alright,BIG HUG for u :))))

Olivia said...

sometimes I feel the same way just like you but i think that is life. Maybe that's why people say "life is hard". Keep moving, i see that you are a happy, humble and creative girl. Just think that you have so many people that support you and who inspired by you and you will feel blessed :)

Anonymous said...

:'(

seragam sekolah said...

nice post guys. l lkie it

salam dari tukang jilbab, kerudung dan penjual
busana muslim, baju muslim,
hijab, mukena, abaya

laura said...

Keep spirit kak...Lot of people love u here..so don't really think with the one who don't..
I love u.that's it..:)

Dee_ya said...

Semangat.. Jangan Pernah merasa sendiri karena allah selalu dan selalu bersama dan menjaga kita.. ciayo..
Butuh liburan tuh kayaknya.. biar seger lagi.. :)

Anonymous said...

Be strong, diana. God bless you :)

shinta said...

life is an adventure with many ups and downs.. just enjoy it with all your heart, and always be grateful for having people who loves and supports you dearly.. GBU..

Fenny Wong said...

I'm glad you're already feeling better. Some times are like that, and we all feel that way from time to time, so you are not alone. You are lucky have S, and people who love you beside you also :) Please never think that you're alone, because you are not....

Shahirah said...

be strong,girl.i've had those moments and alhamdulillah,live must go on and always be happy,that's for sure.

Novita said...

Please be strong, diana! We know that u can make it!
And u already hve a wonderfull life that nobody have and also a good bf! They all just a poor jealousy ppl, di. Hmmm.. Sometimes we do mistakes, sometimes we meet a fake ppl, but thats lifeee :) and one thing that u should know is that WE LOVE YOU . XO

RS said...

Be strong Diana!

You're an amazing person and no one can take that away from you. Be strong and put your faith in Allah. You're a brilliant girl. You've gone so far already and there will always be haters but do what I do, ignore them.

=)

Zahra N Damayanti said...

"it's a mean world out there. There will always be people who lie to you, who loves bringing you down, who hates you for whatever reason." ini juga yg aku rasain kak. but your last words are sooo inspiring!

Noorul Aida said...

if you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner' - james frey

be strong sis~~~

anisizatyA.J said...

Sometimes its good to cry and let everything out of your system. :) be strong

Anonymous said...

glad that you have that kind of thought! (:
we love you Diana :D

Jason Abd said...

Sometime, we have to let the tears down. And stop for awhile, take a back step to see what has happened.

And you did great jobs, include be grateful. :)

yasmin ahmad said...

Just be strong DR. Allah is always with us =)

iegha said...

wish u all d best dear. Dont let anything bring u down... Just cry if it will make u feel better. Then that's it... wake up and run again!!!

eiphel mercedes said...

jika orang tidak memaafkan kita, itu terserah mereka, yg penting, kita sudah menyelesaikan tanggung jawab kita dg meminta maaf kak :) skrg masalah mereka dg Tuhan, masalah kita dg Tuhan sd beres :D

Anonymous said...

Hi kak Di.
I am one of ur readers.
Even I don't know u personally, but I can feel that u're such a nice person, u're great. Be strong and keep inspiring!

yulianne said...

wow Di, i thought only a pesimist like me who thinks it's a mean world out there. but if a positive person like u said that, means it really is a mean world out there. i always belive this, everything may be fine but it will pass.
u r lucky to have so many people to support u, i guess it's just because u r a really nice person who never mean any harm to anyone.
u r blessed.

gits said...

dont feel bad if people talk shit about u. Everybody has an opinion, be true in your self :)

Jessica Aguirre said...

Diana, whenever those feelings are about to spark you need to just remember that GOD loves you an there is nothing to fret for he is always with you. I suffer from depression and faith is the #1 healer and helper. This is just the pain before the healing.Listen to this song: The Dark Before The Morning by: Josh Wilson

Triol said...

Alhamdulillah.. Keep your faith, and live your life to seek Allah's acceptance..(not people's) And InshaAllah you'll find peace Diana! :D

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