Monday, January 10, 2011

Confessions Of A Blogger

If I were to choose today's "Question of The Day", I guess it would be this one which was raised by a very friendly lady I met today;

"Do you ever feel pressurized ever since your blog got famous?"

I answered with a smile, and a low voice of "yes"...:)

The interesting part about blogging, for me, is that it started off with the thought of diary-ing. Ever since I was a kid, I used to buy Hello Kitty diaries and write down about my day in it; what I did, where I went, what I ate. It's just a part of me that enjoys keeping daily stories as memories. And so the diary itself went virtual at one point of time, that my diary is now no longer called a "diary", but a "blog". So my blog is my virtual diary.

I just wrote, took pictures, reviewed products, shared my favorite songs, and I was so much enjoying it that I never put any thinking of what I was doing and where it was taking me to. It was simply a medium of expression, and it still is. But then I am just very lucky, that people, including you, have the kindness to drop by and actually read whatever I have put up on my blog. And so I am grateful...:)

As much as I would never want to claim my blog 'famous', I do realize that there are quite a lot of people who read my blog, and therefore the diary is shared. And I guess this is where the pressure comes. The pressure arrives when high expectations are set, and every word I write is analyzed. I have to think twice, even thrice, before writing a post, because I am scared of what kind of responses it might invite. Some readers would be extremely nice providing me supportive & heartwarming comments, whilst ones who don't fancy me would take my words or photos as a presentation of a snob, a weirdo, an attention seeker, a fashion failure. I am aware that this is the risk of making your diary public, hence also a responsibility for me to ensure I do not blog about anything that might have a bad influence towards others. But then it requires a very big heart to accept all the consequences and move forward by remaining true to yourself, and that big heart can sometimes shrink though eventually enlarges back. I am who I am, and I can never accommodate everyone's liking. There will always be a group of people who does not like me with or without any reason, and there will always be another who expects me to be what they expect. In between, there are people who just kindly accepts me for who I am. I have my utmost respect to all of you, whichever group you fall into. And I am so grateful to have you all around me, as it teaches me a lot to become a strong person...:)

I'm just a Diana, who loves shoes, clothes, doing business, writing, trying new things. If I become known because of it and because of this blog, I really don't know what happened, but I will always remain the person I have always been. This post is one of my ways to let go of that pressure I might have been feeling once in a while, as I am writing this out of genuine feelings. I've made a promise to myself that this blog will always remain a diary, that will not be fabricated or commercialized..:)

Here's to you and me and everyone around us! We might love or hate each other, but even haters have room for love. Cheers! :)

PS:
My "Earthy Love" photos for Bloop Endorse is in Go Girl! January issue...yay!! :)

25 comments:

Raji said...

This is such a lovely post
I, for one, love your blog because it's your personality that shines through and it's obvious that you love what you do, don't change!

sheila said...

HELLO ka dyana
open and follow my blog ya ka
http://sheila-motmot.blogspot.com/

hehehe
sheila selalu buka blog kk tiap hari loh...

thnk's ka
:)

anisizatyA.J said...

true :D

Anonymous said...

It's not weirdo or fashion failure..its called COUTURE hahaha

Sophia said...

I couldn't agree more ;)

Zahra Mahdiatari said...

a wonderful diana :)
i always wonder where does your positiveness come from? :)

http://zahramahdiatari.blogspot.com/

chummy_cliche said...

yes i love your word.. it felt so sincere.. btw is it english ur main bahasa? so fluent and i can learn good grammar from u :)

Michelle said...

I've been waiting for you to write this sort of post ! i kinda feel the same way as you do actually.. im the "parno" type, and the more exposed my blog is, the more private i become. but in the end, i will always be me :) just like you would stay true to yourself no matter what !

xx

nayrell said...

heartwarming post:) its not a fashion failure,ur just creative! thats what caught the readers,medias and people interest..cuz of ur unique-ness and creativity:) there's always sthg new and different ideas that u go about..keep on posting and inspire people!go girl!

fadhilarachmawati said...

I like this post.
I was inspired a lot from your blog, it is so adorable <3
keep blogging and give positive spirit to others. yay.
:D


http://fadhilarachmawati.blogspot.com

Ario Achda said...

always love when people express this kind of true feelings. i know that u know that some people might still call you weirdo or showing hatred, but u will stay 100% original as well. so, keep the curtain's up and put on another scene, di!

Olive said...

I always love when you post about your true feelings. I think those people who hate you have their way to show that actually they love you by making a bad judgment about you,LOL

winda kartika said...

This is one of post that's very touching and inspiring i've ever read, go kak di! you're marvelous \(´▽`)/

atiqah said...

It was a pleasure to read this post. All I can say is, I wish you well always, and hope that you will continuously be blessed in all your endeavors.

AstyNNS said...

Hi Diana, Iam a silent reader, I love your blog and I think You're so smart and creative ;)

Puput Nopitasari said...

cool!

Rahayu Oktaviani said...

Go diana go! you really inspired me with the way you write, your confidence even the magic way you express your self. keep on blogging! you know, there's many people outside who love your blog and feel your positiveness spirit!

Kiki said...

Your blog was just featured on TV3 (Malaysia)just now...

:)

Multibrand said...

That's an interesting post.

Tara said...

"whilst ones who don't fancy me would take my words or photos as a presentation of a snob, a weirdo, an attention seeker, a fashion failure..."

Sucks yah? but there is a saying "If someone hates you, than there are many that adores you" I guess it happens when someone is successful in any field, there are bound to meet some well... "interesting" people :)

So no matter what Diana, keep on doing what you are doing because I believe that this is your rejki, and not many would think that, so let them be and I'm glad you mentioned that haters have room for love.

You are a great wonderful lady, Thanks for this blog Diana! May Allah bless you!

T

Tara said...

"whilst ones who don't fancy me would take my words or photos as a presentation of a snob, a weirdo, an attention seeker, a fashion failure..."

Sucks yah? but there is a saying "If someone hates you, than there are many that adores you" I guess it happens when someone is successful in any field, there are bound to meet some well... "interesting" people :)

So no matter what Diana, keep on doing what you are doing because I believe that this is your rejki, and not many would think that, so let them be and I'm glad you mentioned that haters have room for love.

You are a great wonderful lady, Thanks for this blog Diana! May Allah bless you!

T

Betacenturia said...

wow, yes you are the one on the mags i read, Luv it :)

fhen said...

such a lovely and heartwarming post kak diana. it is true that sometimes we need to think moer than once about what to write cause sometimes we just dont know who will read the blog and how they might react to it.
im glad that you stay true to yourself, cause it is all that matters.

xoxo

alia pewe said...

i used to write diary too, so i find it interesting to read your blog kak di. your experiences, your thoughts, your stories, give me information that i never knew before. and i love because you update it regularly so people will happily come here everyday to know more about you :)

keep blogging !

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