Friday, November 26, 2010

We Are Who We Are

Someone from Malaysia sent me an email, asking about my decision to resign from the company I was working for in order to pursue another opportunity that had no strong promise of its future potential, and had no guarantee on what it can bring to my life. She asked me how it felt, during those very defining moments...:)

It was hard! It was hard to even just make up my own mind. I would wake up in the morning so convinced that I had to resign, but then during the day, I would actually enjoy my work and cherish the wonderful colleagues I had, then develop a second thought that I should not resign, and just manage everything as best as possible. I felt good by the compliments I received from my bosses...I enjoyed the stable income, the clear career path, the delicious treats from agencies. I enjoyed what I was given. But then at night, I would wonder what most matters in life, and what would make not only myself happy, but my soul as well. I thought about it for a very long time. And I finally knew, that I want to enjoy the feeling of creating something, from my very own hands.

For whatever that is I wanted to do, I needed time, and I needed to focus. Working 9 to 5 surely didn't allow me to have enough time, moreover the energy I needed. And I guess that was it. That was the simplest, strongest reason why I quit my job...to have enough energy and time. I want to be able to enjoy both worlds, but do I need to? And even if I succeed in convincing myself that I need to, am I actually able to? It became about measuring my own capabilities in the most genuine & realistic manner. So I resigned.

I was scared, not of failing, but of regretting. But in life, I guess we should never have regrets, for having so doesn't do us any favor but sadness. And for whatever happens next, we can always have a another plan, right?

The more I grow older, the more I learn to be true to myself. It sounds cheesy, I know. But it matters, really. I could have lied, and told myself that I can maintain my career and do what I wanted to do both at the same time. I could've been a super someone. But I'm not. For nobody is. And I guess I could have just gone with my career, to play safe. But dreams are there to pursue, and it's pretty that way.

If there's a will, there's a way. And if it's positive, the universe is with us...:)

Be true to yourself, guys...100% original...:)

24 comments:

miss ailema said...

This is so nice. I think I love reading your personal posts more than your clothing posts. You are so smart and I admire your courage. :) Goodluck on your chosen path!

Fatima said...

wauw you couldn't have said better! :)
But about wich opportunity do you talk about? I just discovered your blog, I'm a new follower :)


xx fatima

hanny arianty gultom said...

Semangat yah Die.. Knowing you virtually for such a very long time, i guess you this is your real beginning.. Again i wish you a very luck. A quotation for you from the late matthew stepanek that said : "don't forget to play after storm".. ^^

heart,

ms.hunz

Anonymous said...

I've been a long follower of your blog. Thank you so much for this (and all the other) entry. It came in a time when I needed it the most, when I'm experiencing some pretty down times in life. Be true to myself and measure my capabilities genuinely. Thanks, Diana.

F i K a said...

Diii...I really love this post. I'm in the same position like you and just decided to resign from my current job. I don't want to regret it. Hope you will success in any decision you make :)..good luck Di!!

Laxc Cullen said...

yupz, I really understand how ur feeling about your breakthrough decision in your life. So do I. I've made such kind of decision about my career too. Actually, I should have worked at Singapore Consulate, but I figure out deeper what is exactly what I want, it's such an idealism. Then, I took a risky step into investment world, foreign exchange. It's so challenging for me since I have to learn from zero and got loss US$..k. But I didn't regret it at all, this is the way I choose in order to be a great trader and analyst in the future.Nice to share it :)

Puput Nopitasari said...

Agreed. be 100% original.

And one of your statements reminds me to Paulo Coelho's saying in his book, "The Alchemist"
"If we want something all the universe help us to achieve it."
Chayo Kak Diana!
I envy you to be brave to follow your own passion.

ini blog ayin! said...

yeah..its same to me...its really pressure,so tought, annoying..oh goshh..but 4 me..i dun give up bout dat..same to u..just be patient n do what u think its the best..chaiyok..chaiyok..@_@

veda said...

kak di, do u saw your becoming collections yourself? Or you design them yourself?
Closettesttube.blogspot.com

jacobian said...

well good luck with your new career path then. :-)

alavya-shofa said...

agree!! :)

Dechibis said...

sis, jangan di jakarta terus dong.... di bogor plis plis plis... *baby eyes*

kerR {abdullah} said...

this is so inspiring entry... thank you so much! :)

shilda said...

I am on same boat with you, I supposed to do my family business after graduate from uni. I hate to do it, because I am not soo in to it, I want to do something else, I am going to tell my dad about it, and hope he wouldnt kill me.

thxxx

HARAJUKU on SPOT said...

11-12 with my experienece neng,
am decide to resign from oil company when i have chance to be fashion stylist and doing what i really want to do.
good luck dear, i know you will did well

Diana Rikasari said...

Thank you so much, all...i'm glad you all are appreciating my decision and also what i write... *hug* Wish you guys the best! :)

the unknown said...

haha finally, the lil gal has taken her 1st step to the grown up world.

im not sure what kinda path u're referring to, but i hope u're deciding to be ur own boss.. an entrepreneur!

i did the same thing with reasons similar to yours. i mean, why work n be a slave for a big company to earn a five figure income every *month* when u can earn as much on ur own, every *week*, insyaAllah.

kinda scary at first but insyaAllah, with a lil' bit of faith u're gonna do juz fine.

Sly Dz said...

I've been yr silent reader for quite some time. and I'd like to say this is by far the best post you've ever come up with...why? because I was in this position last few months, I quit my job too....the only difference is I could not put it into words why I did it...and this post *every single word of it* explained it all....thanks DR =) love you hehehe

..... no preservatives said...

keep the faith..

..... no preservatives said...

keep the faith :)

Annisa said...

Best post... i agree 1000% =) Good Luck!!!

Intan Juliana said...

You wrote such wonderful words! and it really touched me, cos I (and I'm sure some other readers here) facing the same problems as you do.
What a brave heart you had.. to go outside the box and your comfort zone.

Btw, I was in your position months ago.. The regretful feeling was there, but then again, I can depend on anyone but myself. There will be times when you thought that you were taking a wrong decision, you just have to keep the faith Diana.. No one tell you it would be easy.

I sincerely wish you all the best in your "new" life. Cheers! XOXO

Shalia kOdi said...

Thanks dear for the inspiring post! I was an entrepreneur myself for 2yrs and really enjoyed myself. But I had to stop my dream for a while after I gave birth and bought a house as I faced a few difficulties in continuing my biz.

And now, I'm missing my biz badly. I did it with great passion but now, eventhough I'm working with an established international co.,it's not the same and I feel like some part of ME is missing..


I do hope that I'd be able to continue my biz one fine day and there'll be no turning back! Thanks again for this post and May Allah bless us all in whatever path we chose insyaAllah :)

wanna be moon said...

u'r so damnn cool! can i have some of your courage? hehee.. :)

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