There's a lot behind a smile; happiness, gladness, relief, respect, amusement, concealed sadness. Sometimes, it also hides anger. Things are not easy in life - it never was, probably never will be. I cannot see any phase in my life where I am not given such big tests and challenges by God, and honestly, it just keeps getting tougher. There are days when I feel like running away. There are days when I just want to be invisible. There are days when nothing makes myself feel better, and the fact that I can't really run away makes me end up just crying in my bed until I fall asleep. I don't have everything figured out, sometimes I feel like my future is blurry. Sometimes I feel lost. Sometimes I feel helpless. Whenever I have all these terrible feelings, I tell S every single bit of it. And I ask him, "will things ever get better?", to which he always says, "it will, honey. And most importantly, we have each other".
Wednesday, April 25, 2018
It's You and I
There's a lot behind a smile; happiness, gladness, relief, respect, amusement, concealed sadness. Sometimes, it also hides anger. Things are not easy in life - it never was, probably never will be. I cannot see any phase in my life where I am not given such big tests and challenges by God, and honestly, it just keeps getting tougher. There are days when I feel like running away. There are days when I just want to be invisible. There are days when nothing makes myself feel better, and the fact that I can't really run away makes me end up just crying in my bed until I fall asleep. I don't have everything figured out, sometimes I feel like my future is blurry. Sometimes I feel lost. Sometimes I feel helpless. Whenever I have all these terrible feelings, I tell S every single bit of it. And I ask him, "will things ever get better?", to which he always says, "it will, honey. And most importantly, we have each other".
Hai, Kak Diana! Terima kasih untuk tulisanmu yang selalu "menyemangati"-ku di blog ini. I hope Allah always grant you and your family a lifetime happiness.
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